Im NOT starting over – Im starting again at the start and eating humble pie…

So, its been a long time between posts…….

Feeling a bit overwhemled at blogging again but think i need to do it as It keeps me accountable and honest 

So many things have happened and its really hard to know where to start. 

I have been up and down an up again with my weightloss.

I am about to become a grandmother

I left my nice secure gov based job, to enable me to train for my 1/2 marathon… speaking of which 

I am now a runner…. YAY ME!!! 

I have trained for and completed two of my goals, 

1The City 2 Surf ( hated it but ran the whole way ) 

2 ) Cadbury 1/2 Marathon ( loved it ran the whole way and smiled the whole way too )  ( will post more about this soon ) 

I have given up smoking.

I have started training to become a PT.

I have rejoined the 12wbt to get my weightloss back under control ( not doing the current round but will be doing the next round starting 28/314 ) 

I have just posted a long winded rant about my weightloss . weighgain etc etc on the 12wbt forums and thought Id share it here too..

A lot of this stuff I have gone over before on here so I apologise for repeating myself over and over again

Oh and I just checked out the preview to this… funnily enough the last post before this one was me talking about  how much I know ( all of which I really do still know ) …  Just goes to show how mindsets and circumstances can change your perspective.. and thats ok, its all about what you need at the time.. and right now at this time, this is what I need 

thanks for reading xoxoxo 

its good to be back…

INTRODUCTION TO ROUND 2 2014

 

Its not starting over, it just starting back at the start..

 

Just thought I’d pop in and introduce myself…  but a word of warning, what started out as a simple little Hi im so an so and this is my 9th round blah blah blah has turned into a bit of a novel……… so Id suggest maybe you should grab yourself a nice cuppa / head off to the loo, get yourself nice and comfortable before continuing on..

 

Also Im posting this in a few places so you may see it more than once as even though I am doing the Advanced program I’d like to share my story with everyone to offer support and encouragement.

 

Ready … Ok  here goes…

 

Firstly the introduction…  Hi Im Leanne, 42, Wife, mother ( about to become Grandmother ) domestic goddess, genius, awesome, fun , friendly, helpful , fun runner, fitness fanatic wannabe,  etc etc etc .

 

I am back again to start at the start, I am not starting over I am just starting back at the start. ( There is a difference )

 

For me the beginning of this round will be a new kind of start,  one that I have done several times before but each time it has been different and this time will be different again. You see I am almost back to the weight I was when I first started with 12wbt.

 

Like most people on here I have had weight issues my entire life. I yo yo up and down over and over and over again…

 

At my heaviest ( 3years ago ) I was 118kgs…  I lost a few kgs on my own and started 12wbt in Round 3 2011 at 98kgs ….at my lightest ( 18mnths ago ) I was 77kgs. As I sit here and type this on 22nd Feb I currently weigh in at 97kgs…

 

This next round will be my 9th… OMFG… 9!!!!!…  

I have the little badge next to my name showing “9” rounds and “ Champion”

I think “Champion” is a little misguided…

So lets just get this straight, I have signed up for 9 rounds BUT if I am totally honest with myself I have really only committed and actually done about 4 of those and to be brutally gut wrenchingly arms wide open honest I have only followed the program to the letter for 1 round… ( funnily enough that was also my most successful round .. hmm )

 

I have been reflecting on how much has changed over the past 9 rounds….  its not just my weight.

 

When I first started exercising, I was too embarrassed to go outside and exercise in public where people would see me.

 

I was too embarrassed to let any one know I was trying to loose weight, what if I failed, what if someone asked me about it.

 

I used to walk around my house and backyard.

I used to use my sons Wii and do the Wii fitness games.

I used to wear baggy clothes – god forbid I would wear lycra exercise gear..or OMG  a singlet!!

I wanted to join the gym but I thought I was too unfit.  How silly is that??

I wanted to learn to run but was afraid of what anyone who seen me would think.

I started out very slowly, just gentle exercise 2 – 3 times a week.

 

I met a girl online through the biggestloser club website and we dared to dream we could walk the city2surf.

I had never committed to anyone else that I would do something, from the moment I committed to her I thought of a thousand excuses I could use to get out of it. I told my family I wanted to do it and they just looked at me rolled their eyes and thought.. yeah yeah whatever.

It took me a lot to finally get the courage to go walking around my neighbourhood, but I made the choice I had committed to do the city 2 surf and I was going to do it, it was probably going to take me 5hrs but I was going to do it.

I walked 3 times a week for about 8 weeks to get ready, and the week before I set off on my longest walk of 13kms just to prove to myself that I could do it.

It took me 3hrs, and I was in agony by the end…

 

Finally the big day came and we did it, we walked the city2surf.

It was extremely hard, I could not walk for a week afterwards, and even though I was elated and proud of what I had achieved, I had mixed feelings  knew I still had such long way to go, I had already lost 20kgs and was feeling depressed that I still had so much more to do. I was desperate, I needed help, I had no confidence, I had no future goals set , I just wanted to loose more weight.

 

I then started with 12wbt and loved the camaraderie, of  everyone being on the same menu plan, following the same exercises etc etc..

 

I did the tasks and took a big leap of confidence and introduced myself in the forums, where I discovered my fears and anxieties were completely normal.

 

I joined a facebook group for Sydneysiders where I met the amazingly awesome Leonie Gray and started attending some Saturday afternoon boot camp type sessions.

I discovered that I actually liked healthy foods, and could exercise and push myself further than I thought possible.

I was still a smoker but I kept telling myself, “ Ill wait till I lose the weight then I’ll give it up “

 

Every round I have done has been different.

My goals have been different, my mindset has been different, my focus and commitment level have been different.

Some I have focused purely on weight loss

Some I have focused on nutrition

Some I have focused on fitness

Some I had focused on all three

Some I have not even logged on to website for the entire round.

Some I had no focus at all, merely plodding along hoping for the best

 

Over the next few rounds I lost another 21kgs still smoking. I attempted a few times to give up but as soon as I started to put on weight I would panic and start up smoking again.

 

I started my own facebook group up for Western Sydney members and have met the most amazing group of friends through the page. I wanted to help other people realise they could do this, that no matter how daunted they felt at the beginning it was worth the effort, and everyone has to start somewhere.

I organised regular meet ups for fitness tests, and SSS’s,  we had a huge group meet up at the Sydney Finale in 2012 got an awesome pic with Mish.. 

I still smile everytime I think about these days, I was at my happiest when I would drag my butt out of bed early on Sat morning to head down to the river and meet up with whoever else turned up, we would moan and groan, whinge and complain, laugh and joke while we worked out.. then we would all go for breakfast.. I’m sure the Coffee club staff  at Penrith would roll their eyes when we all walked in, we would order things from the menu but make multiple changes… I’ll have the lifestyle breakfast – no butter no cheese wholemeal bread and only 1 slice.. oh and with mushrooms please…

 

I had a bit of a break from the program at the start of last year ( although I did sign up twice!! )

I joined a run club and when I started to get a bit more “serious” about running and fun runs and starting training for the City2Surf,  

I had a huge light bulb moment, what was the point pushing myself running 3 – 4 times each week and then lighting up afterwards? ..  Finally after years of procrastinating I did it, I gave up smoking. I am not going to lie the first 4 – 5 weeks were extremely hard, but as time went on it did get easier until one day I just realised that I had not even thought about it for a week or so…   I trained to run the city2 surf for the 1st time, and I did it.

I then started training for my 1st ½ marathon, I trained for 6months and documented my training on my facebook page to keep myself accountable.- check it out here if you want . https://www.facebook.com/willrunforchocolateandwine?bookmark_t=page

 

I knew I would gain some weight by giving up smoking, but I thought that by training hard I could counteract that… seems I was wrong, while training for my ½ marathon despite doing around 40kms of running each week, and training for at least 1hr a day for 5-6 days I still gained 10kgs, I then got diagnosed with early menopause and have steadily been putting on an average of about 300 grms a week.

 

So now I sit here at around the same weight 2 ½ years later,  ready to start back at the start..

 

This time the start is so much different .

 

When I first started on this lifestyle change I was a heavy smoker, I used to smoke both before and after my workouts, I would chain smoke on the way the gym or a workout.

I could not walk more than 1km without having to stop for a breath

I had “back issues” and believed that I my back was damaged for good and would always prevent me from being active.

I could not run to save my life.

I had no real dreams or aspirations for my personal life ; my goal was simply to lose weight and look good in photos  ( or at least not look fat )

 

 

My goals then were

1 ) Lose weight ( no specific number just enough to “Look normal” ) and to be able to buy clothes in any shop

2 ) Give up smoking

3 ) Get Fitter

 

The only fitness goal I set for myself was to be able to walk the City2Surf so I could say that I had done it.

 

Ive learned to set goals and work my butt off to achieve them.

 

Yep I’ve lost 35kg…  I’ve also managed to put 17 of those back on.

I can buy clothes in any shop but Im back to the bigger sizes again

 

I have given up smoking – had my last cigarette 30th April 2013 and have not even thought about having another  

 

My “back issues” went away as I lost weight and became more active.

 

I am fairly fit. I can run, I have not only walked the city 2 surf twice but I have also run it last year.

This year despite being up 17kg I did my first ½ marathon in January  and I wore tight lycra with a singlet!!

 

When I got down to my lightest I was starting to get fitter but I was still a smoker and would struggle with running and any form of hard cardio work.

 

When I was at my fittest I gave up smoking and starting early menopause and gained back weight

 

I refuse to see this as a damned if you do and damned If you don’t kind of thing.

 

I choose see it as an out of alignment kind of thing.

I always wanted to give up smoking, and If I had of given it up at 118kgs  I would have probably still gained weight  and the early menopause thing, well nothing I can do about that.

So if I had not lost the weight first, I would have gotten even heavier than 118 and that would have made it 100 times harder to start than it was in the first place..

 

Regardless of my weight I am happier and healthier and more confident than I have been in years, I am proud of the person I have discovered.

 

I am a non smoker.

 

I am a runner

 

I am confident and passionate

 

I have big goals and dreams. And I am not scared to shout them out and pursue them.

 

I know there is no failure, as long as you keep getting up moving forward and giving it your best you will not fail.. It might just take a bit longer to get there.

 

I have realised that helping people realise they can do this for themselves is what makes me happy, my new goal is to become a PT so I can work with people who feel they are too far gone to do anything and don’t have the confidence to try.

I want to help anyone who was once like me thinking, “its just too hard” “ ill never be able to do this” “ everytime I try I fail” “ Im just to unfit to go to the gym”

 

I know I can loose the weight that I have gained back, and I know that I can achieve my goals, its just a matter of starting again, and where better place to start, then at the start…

 

 

 

 

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ALL THESE THINGS I KNOW

ALL THESE THINGS I KNOW

 

 

I am not doing this current round of 12wbt , in  fact since my last blog I have not done much of anything.

Well that’s not entirely true, I’ve done things and lots of things have happened – Christmas, New Years, birthdays etc AND…  I have been running, YES ME running – for real –  AND AND AND..  I’ve even joined a Run club and I LOVE IT but aside from that I’ve been a bit all over the place.

 

You know what I mean, my food choices have not been great, and while they are much better than they would have been a few years ago, they are no where near as healthy as they should be, and we all know what this means, YEP you guessed it, those kg’s I worked so DAMN hard to get off are starting to creep back on bit by bit.

 

The illogical part of my brain has working overtime lately ignoring all those little feather tickles that say , Do you really need that?,  Shouldn’t you work out just a bit harder,  The same part brain part also ignored the rock that was thrown in when the message didn’t get through ..  don’t worry about the numbers on the scale, its only a few hundred grams and its just a number. Don’t worry about the tight pants,. They’re not too bad, after all they still fit… just..

Luckily the logical rational side has kicked in just as the mac truck started to back up for a head on impact…

 

 

I KNOW THIS STUFF, Ive been doing it for years.

 

I KNOW what I SHOULD be doing

I KNOW I can lose weight

I KNOW the basic fundamentals of this healthy lifestyle and weight loss stuff

I even KNOW some of the more complicated technical stuff too

I KNOW what foods I SHOULD be choosing

I KNOW he numbers on the scales are DO NOT DEFINE ME

I KNOW I use that last line when those numbers are not going down but when they are going up like they are now – guess what  they are  DEFINING ME and my choices!!

I KNOW I am free to choose, and that every choice I make will bring me closer to or further from my ultimate goal

I KNOW that clean healthy food combined with exercise is the ONLY way to maintain a healthy lifestyle

I KNOW that I feel SO much better when I choose healthy foods

I KNOW that I LOVE feeling healthy and looking HOT!!

I KNOW I need to track my food to keep myself in check

I KNOW I need to control my portion sizes

I KNOW how AWESOME it feels to set goals and achieve them

I KNOW how important exercise is

I KNOW my stomach and my bowel ( eww gross ) feel and work so much better when I choose healthy foods

I KNOW that my skin clears up when I choose the healthy option

I KNOW that SMOKING is bad for me and one day it just might KILL ME!!

I KNOW I drink too much coffee

I KNOW that peanuts are a good source of protein and omega 3 acids, and that peanut M & Ms are NOT the same

I KNOW that I should drink at least 2 litres of water EVERY DAY

I KNOW that a peanut butter sandwich on fresh soft white bread from the local bakery, is NOT a healthy choice at 11pm

I KNOW a lot of stuff, yet here I am sitting here at work at 1am feeling all FAT and uncomfortable, my clothes are getting too tight, my work top is starting to bulge at the buttons just a little bit and I can feel my stomach hanging over my pants.

 

Its quite irritating, because I KNOW that I KNOW these things, its hard to put into words, but you know what I mean, once you KNOW something you just know it and you can not UNKNOW it!! No matter how hard you might try to forget about something or ignore that voice inside your head, once its out there and you KNOW it, you just KNOW IT.

 

Lets just back up a bit here, Over the past 3 years I have lost a total of 35kg, ( and even after all of that I have never come close to my goal weight )  I have done the 12wbt, I’ve done the biggest loser club, but what it all comes down to is I HAVE DONE IT, through making healthy choices and hard work.

 

I must admit when I starting writing this post tonight I was heading towards justifying my desire to sign back up to the 12wbt program.  I got the email today, the next round sign up has started and my head starting spinning. Oh should I join back up? I’ve been really slack lately, I did so well when I was on the program, I have put back on almost 5kgs, its so much easier than having to think for myself.. etc etc etc and ohh look customised programs… ohhh tempting tempting….  Its only $200….. and its easy right, just click on that little tempting JOIN NOW button and you’re back on track..

 

Now sitting here typing it listing all of the things I KNOW It sparked the REBEL side of me, the defiant side, you know that side of you that sparks up when someone tells you that you cant do something.

Please don’t get me wrong, I loved the program, it taught me a lot, it helped me find the most amazing friends I have ever had, it showed me no matter who you are, where you are from, how much you have to lose, we all have the same demons, same emotions, same struggles, same issues.

I did not sign up for the current round because I thought I would be ok on my own, I know what to do  and I needed to do it for myself, just to prove I could do it …..but I haven’t, so what does that mean?, does it mean I have failed? Of course not!! , I still KNOW all the stuff I know I just haven’t applied it. I never really had a plan, I have just been free styling without success, walking around with blinkers on, that is not failure its just stubbornness.

 

I came to work tonight ready to start a goal list for the year, and to plan some meals, and workouts for the next few weeks to get me back on track and subconsciously I think to get me through to the next round starting.

 

But it has reignited the fire in me the KNOWING I can do this, without a program, I need to do this without a program, I need to STAND and take control of my life and not depend on a program to provide all the details.  After all, life itself is not a program, sooner or later, we need to take control for ourselves, as a very wise women told me recently – HELLO!!! – WHOS DRIVING THIS CAR!!

 

So Ive decided once again to not sign up for this round, Its been an emotional mind / soul searching decision but Im feeling confident it’s the right one for me, at this point in my life….  And I have a network of the most AWESOME amazing supportive friends that a girl could ever hope for, who I know are there for me whenever I need them

 

I have also realised I need to blog more often, it’s so therapeutic as I said earlier this blog actually started with me saying why I had fallen off the wagon and how I needed to go back on the program, so look out Ill be back here a lot!!

 

I have started my goal list, another emotional roller-coaster but Ill save that for my next blog

 

An finally while I am sitting here typing away, Im looking at the name of my blog, its still makes me smile… my journey to AWESOME!!

 

I KNOW that I am AWESOME, not just because that’s the name of my blog, or that Im in an AWESOME group, or because I have a pencil case that says so..  Its just one of those things, you know, you just KNOW!!

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Friends, Finale & Feathers – Part 2 – FINALE

It was announced that this finale would be in Sydney about 12 weeks ago,

OMG to say we were a little excited about this is a huge UNDERSTATMENT, the previous finales had been in Perth and Melboure so we were MEGA excited about SYDNEY

Preparations and excited plans starting being formulated immediately,

There were SO many things to think about…. what to wear… where to stay… how long to stay for…. makeup…. hair…. nails…. waxing… spray tans…. shoes…. handbags…. accessories…. where to eat…. limo.. ( hot pink of course ) etc etc etc  luckily we had 12 weeks to plan it all..  I was announced that Emazon would be doing her Stand Your Ground session in the city that weekend too, Perfect timing!

Now for those of you who know me, I am NOT normally a girly type girl, but even I was excited to get all glammed up

There were a few hiccups along the way, I bought a beautiful dress in week 4  with the faint hope of fitting into it in time………  well that did NOT happen, but  me being me and being anal about  being organised – I had also bought a beautiful 2nd hand dress from St Vinnies for a whole $6 just in case….

So we got a group of amazing girls together and booked a luxury 2 bed room apartment at The Star , and a stretch hot pink dodge limo and the countdown to our Girls Night Out started.

We started a facebook group for finale plans and the hot topic soon turned to FOOD!!!…  Adriano Zumbo macaroons to be exact,  It was hilarious, one of the posts about these macaroons turned into a frenzy with hundreds of responses, we were like a bunch of school kids, So a trip to Zumbo’s was added to our list of things to do.

We got down to about 2 weeks to go and Teresa still did not have a dress… so in times of need we did what was needed … WE WENT SHOPPING… for 2 whole DAYS!!, We hit every shop from Penrith to Blacktown  and tried on EVERY dress in EVERY shop…  only stopping for coffee and lunch.

( bit off track but this was the first time I had gone shopping as a “normal” size – I LOVED IT I was super excited to be able to walk into any store and try things on, something I had never been able to do before )

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now back on the subject finally after an agonising but fun filled 8 week countdown the BIG WEEKEND ARRIVED….

Poor Kyleanne had been sick and was still not feeling the best, but we had all been looking forward to this weekend so much that she was determined to soldier on….

Kyleanne Teresa and I headed into the city early Friday morning, First stop Adriano Zumbos!!! For some of those macaroons….  HOLY CRAP… $30 for 12 tiny little biscuits……..which I am disappointed to say are extremely OVERATED!!!…    not that great ..never mind… its all part of the experience, and we can now say we have had Zumbo macaroons..

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Kyleanne needed to buy shoes and a handbag, so naturally next on the agenda.. MORE SHOPPING!!,  and of course being 3 married ladies let loose with no husbands in the city we had a BLAST!!, we even managed to stumble across Lulu Lemon by accident and bought matching pink headbands, for the group

workout the following day, cause that’s how we roll..

Friday night we went and met up with some of the girls from the 30+ face book group for dinner, the plan was to find somewhere nice to sit and eat but as it turns out it was pouring rain, so we ended up going to the first place that looked big enough to take our group of 16… and turns out the food was amazing… We then h

eaded back to the hotel with a pit stop at a gourmet ice cream place called Messina’s …. OMG… peanut butter chocolate ice cream… devine..

There was a point at some stage during the day that Teresa and I decided that we might skip the workout… you know to conserve our energy for the finale…. but Kyleanne even as sick as she was would not hear of this…. bugger… oh well… well just go. It will be hot and lame and boring but we will JFDI …..

Saturday morning arrived and we headed off to the Group Workout – in our matching pink ninja headbands – now I had been pestering our WS crew for weeks to make sure as many people as possible turned up wearing our Western Sydney Crew Hot Pink shirts – we wanted to make an IMPACT!! – and we did… it was amazing there was a sea of hot pink,  the workout was great fun, over 1000 people and loads of stalls full of goodies to sampl

e and check out…  After the workout we hung around and got a great group shot with Michelle,

The workout was AMAZING, so much fun, and to see so many people from our Western Sydney crew was awesome. Kyleanne and I managed to photo bomb Michelle a few times, and I even managed to push my way through the crowd to run beside her during the workout… So pleased we went it was so much FUN!

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Time to head back to the hotel and start getting ready for the big finale…

Teresa and I had decided weeks earlier we were going to treat ourselves to a full glamour makeover and had booked in with the salon at the hotel for both hair and makeup… so quick lunch and shower after the workout and it was time to head off to our appointment…

Heres our before shot ..

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So we headed off to  The Star salon for our glamourising.. Marion had her hair done and Teresa and I stayed and had our makeup done too, OMG that makeup women was AMAZING , I would have liked  to take her home with me, although not sure I could afford to pay her THAT AMOUNT on a daily basis….  She fussed and powdered primed and painted, both Teresa and I to perfection, including the most luscious eyelash extensions you have ever seen…. we left there feeling like princesses….  and a little bit broke $$$ wise… but it was worth it.

By this time the limo had arrived made it back to the room with just enough time to throw on the $6 vinnies dress, slip on the shoes and accessories, and its time to go…. We didn’t even have time to take an “after” shot of us all glammed up before we left the hotel so heres a selfie taken in the car

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The limo ride was AMAZING, we stopped several times for photos, alt

hough I must say the driver was a little excitable and kept asking us to do cleavage shots… hmm…   at one point we were under the harbour bridge where there were several couples having there wedding photos done, and a gorgeous Jaguar was just sitting there parked on the side of the road, so of course we had to have some pics…IMG_2225IMG_2221

 

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Arriving at the finale was AWESOME, everyone looked SO GLAM, it was hard to find all the people I wanted to catch up with because Im not used to seeing everyone all prettied up in dresses and makeup….

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The finale itself was a bit of a letdown, the food was slow to come out and there was no real organisation, don’t know if they are all like this or if I had just built up an image of what I was expecting regardless it did not live up to my expectations, not that I was too dissapoinnted, I still had a fantastic time with my friends, and I can now say I have finally been to a 12wbt finale

I did however manage to meet two amazing ladies whose progress has inspired me for the past 3 years, Amy and Tanya . These 2 ladies have achieved amazing results I started following these girls on the biggestloserclub years ago, and have been facebook friends with theIMG_2275m for years, so to finally get to meet them was one of the highlighfinalegroupallts of my night.

 

 

 

 

So In all my plans for the weekend, I thought I had it all worked out,  Friday /night was great and turned out pretty much as planned.  Originally I was not fussed on the workout but it turned out to be AWESOME… and as excited as I was for the Finale Party, It was no where near as good as I was expecting …  The last thing on our weekend checklist was Emazon….

Task 4 – Say it out LOUD

My task 4 – Say it out LOUD – commitment

I am committed to giving this round 150%

I am committed to trusting the program and following it as closely as possible

I am committed to doing EVERY exercise session

I am committed to improving my fitness and strength

I am committed to continue working on my running and being ready to run the city 2 surf this year as well as a 1/2 marathon next year

I am committed to attending every coffee club run and pushing myself as hard as i can and getting my time down to 45mins

I am committed to keeping organised and plan each and every meal and exercise session so i have no excuses

I am committed to listening to my body and what it needs.

I am committed to looking after me and NOT feeling guilty about it

I am committed to becoming the best version of myself that I can be

I am committed to giving up smoking

I am committed to creating and attending as many group SSS as I can

I am committed to help others who are struggling to see there is a light at the end of the tunnel

I am committed to blogging every week to keep myself accountable

I am committed to ME

Task 3 Gear UP

Task 3 Gear up

 

Task 3 is about gearing up and working out where you will be working out…

 

So I have most of the gear anyone could need

I have a treadmill & home gym – I have a few pushbikes  – but most importantly I have two legs and a heartbeat

 

I will mostly be doing the outdoor program mostly at home

 

I will also be going to my weekly coffee club runs and starting run club in January

 

I’ll be creating SSS events for the Western Sydney FB and Blue Mountains FB group EVERY SATURDAY and will attend EVERY ONE

 

I am doing the Mud Run next weekend

 

I am attending the MS Colour run in February

 

I will mix up my exercise as much as possible to keep the variety interesting

Task 2 – SET YOUR GOALS

Ok so Im a bit late with getting these done BUT as the saying goes its better late than never

This round I am again focusing on FITNESS not weight loss… THE SCALES ARE JUST A NUMBER

I am focusing on improving my running, and keeping organised..

 

 

Health

 

Goal

Stop Bloody Smoking!! Again…

To Achieve this I will

Stay strong and focused. Make signs up to hang around the house to remind me how much I want this, when the cravings become bad

Keep a chart of money saved to keep me motivated.

Reward myself with $10 per day into my goal weight shopping spree fund.

I have just set my quit date as 29/11 – and aim to cut down until this date then stop from this date on..

 

 

Goal

Look after ME

Learn to listen to my body and recognise the signs it gives me

Allow myself to look after me without feeling guilty

To Achieve this I will

Mediate daily, schedule a time for myself to have 5-10mins to just sit, relax and breathe.

Listen to my motivational Cd’s

Take a relaxing bath when needed

Swap a coffee for a herbal tea

Get a massage or facial or similar when I feel I need it

 

Weight Loss / Nutrition

Goal

To get to as close to a a healthy BMI

10 kg loss will take me to the upper limit of healthy bmi 24.7

To Achieve this I will

Follow the menu plan as closely as possible

Plan every meal including cooking / prep time every Thursday – MAKE THE TIME TO KEEP ORGANISED

Bulk cook as many meals as possible for lazy days / emergencies

Take all food for work from home to avoid impulse buys

Plan meals around shift times so I am not coming home starving at 10pm

Keep all Junk food out of the house or well labelled with the calories

 

Meal times for shift work

DAY SHIFT  / DAY OFF

7am – Breakfast

10 am – Snack

1pm Lunch

3pm Snack

6pm Dinner

8pm Herbal Tea

10pm – Bed

 

AFTERNOON SHIFT

9am Breakfast

12pm Snack

3pm Lunch

5pm Snack

8pm Dinner

10pm Herbal Tea

12am – Bed

 

 

NIGHT SHIFT

3pm Breakfast

6pm Snack

9pm Lunch

11pm Snack

3am Dinner

6am Herbal Tea

8am Bed

Fitness

Plan and do EVERY exercise session – MAKE THE TIME!!    NO EXCUSES!!!  JFDI!!

Plan every session smartly, Diarise and plan EVERY session

For morning shift –  do it AS soon as you get home

For afternoon shift – do it 1st thing in the morning

For night Shift – If you can do it all after waking THEN do a shorter session after waking and another session when you get home before sleeping

Days off – First thing in morning

Go to every Coffee Club run that I am not working

Set up SSS events for every Saturday regardless of shift… work around it….

Reward myself for each week I complete EVERY session

 

Weekly Rewards – for completing every session

Manicure / Pedicure

Massage

Facial

$30 into goal weight shopping spree savings

New piece of workout gear

 

Running / Cardio

Goal

To be able to run 10 kms without stopping

How I will achieve this

Follow learn to run 10k program

Join / Start run club training

Set weekly distance goals and rewards

Attend every Coffee Club run session that I can and push myself HARD!!

 

 

Strength

Do TTT and GGG in conjunction with 12wbt programs

Set aside time EVERY TUESDAY AND THURSDAY to do them

PLAN PLAN PLAN

 

FITNESS / EXERCISE CHART

Use my exercise chart – give myself a gold star for every workout.

Print out my running chart and keep it on my inspirational wall

Friends – Finale & Feathers – Part 1 – FRIENDS

I love my FRIENDS!!

 

I have just had the most amazing weekend with my exercise friends, these girls are awesome!!

The dictionary defines the word friend as

1 – somebody emotionally close

2- acquaintance

3- ally

4- advocate of cause

5- patron

 

Before I joined the 12wbt and met my amazing exercise friends if someone asked me to define the meaning of the word friend I probably would have said

 

Someone you know, like, care for and get along with

Someone you share a common bond with

Someone you enjoy spending time with

Someone you enjoy being with

 

While these descriptions cover the basic meanings they don’t even come close to describing how I feel about my exercise friends.

 

Being overweight for most of my life has really held me back, I have always found it hard to share my weight struggles with friends, I have always been uncomfortable asking my “normal” friends for help when it comes to weight loss and exercise. I have never had friends I could exercise with without feeling embarrassed, or ashamed. I have never felt comfortable discussing the issues associated with being fat with any of my friends.

 

I have always been a very caring, giving and generous person, so its in my nature to want to help people. I have learnt over time that a lot of so-called friends are happy enough to take my generosity and help, but it always seems one sided. I am the first one to offer help when needed, but the times in my life I have needed help, there has been no offers… until now

 

Since joining the 12wbt and meeting these amazing ladies my whole outlook on the meaning of friendship has changed.

 

 

I find it hard to believe that I have only known these ladies for such a short time, in some cases 10months in other cases  6 months, and even just a few weeks, it feels like we have been friends for life.

 

We have all met through the facebook group for the 12wbt, and the one thing we had in common at the beginning was wanting to lose weight, over the past few weeks and months we have discovered that we have so much more in common that that.

We have discovered that we all have our own demons and struggles, we have all had that sense of not feeling good enough , guilt about our bodies, guilt about our families, guilt about feeling guilty.

 

I feel so complete, it is so refreshing to have these special ladies in my life, to be able share this part of me with others who have been or are facing the same struggles that I have, is so liberating .

To have friends who know exactly how you are feeling, and who want to share and celebrate your victories, and understand your feelings and frustrations when things aren’t going to plan.. like when “life” takes over, is amazing.

 

So I have been thinking over the past few days about my exercise friends, and how much I love them and what they do for me, and this is what I would now use to describe a friend

 

Someone who makes you happy

Someone who makes you laugh

Someone who makes you cry

Someone who “gets” you

Someone who is  happy when you are  happy

Someone who is  sad when you are sad

Someone who wants to be around you

Someone who wants to spend time with you

Someone who wants to help you

Someone who knows how you feel

Someone who knows when you need a push

Someone who knows when you need a hug

Someone who understands your struggles

Someone who rejoices in your triumphs

Someone who is happy for you regardless of their own situation

Someone who will encourage you to try or push harder

Someone who inspires you with their kindness

Someone who inspires you with their achievements

Someone who inspires you with their triumphs

Someone who accepts you just as you are

 

I have used the term exercise friends, as these I have met these wonderful ladies through the program and our friendship started when we would get together for exercise sessions.

We have evolved so much over countless coffee’s, tears, hugs, tears, shopping trips, tears, dinners, and weekends away, tears …… These ladies are not just my exercise friends… They are my TRUE FRIENDS….  and I love them all to bits